article19 I started my creative practice today by drawing a line.

A bad one.

I cringed looking at it.

It took all I had to stop from screwing it up and throwing it wildly to the wind.

My inner critic was quick to unsheathe his sword.

 


He had a glint in his eye, awaiting the nod to push the steel into the heart of my half formed creation...

My muse rose to my lines defense.

In her soft and subtle tone she murmured...

“Just breathe... give the line a chance.  Before you destroy it, find something to admire about it...”

 

Clearly we were looking at two very different lines...

I mean what was there to admire about something so poorly crafted?

She continued despite my indignation...

“There is beauty to be found in all things... even that which we would prefer to turn away from...

Be still... Observe... You might be surprised by what you see...”

 

Deep surrender.

With her plea reverberating through me, I surrendered to the process.

I observed the line.

I observed myself.

I misted over... moments passed... and then a beauty emerged...

I was in awe.

What was even more astonishing was noticing my inner urge to carry on creating.

I gave myself permission to connect with the moment and released attachment to where it may lead...

Leaning forward, I dared myself to complete what I had begun.

Adding lines at first.

Then, splashes of colour...

 

The moment morphed.

What had been seeped in pain and disappointment transformed into a joyous and cathartic unfolding...

I couldn't stop laughing at myself as I moved boldly towards the drawings completion.

It became a revelatory experience.

When I sat observing the finished piece, I was infused with a deep sense of liberation.

And it wasn't the outcome that was all important.

It was the process itself...

 

What living is.


To strive. To fall. To rise. And then carry on as best we can is what living is all about.

It felt like my muse in her mysterious way had given me the opportunity to re-connect with what it means to be alive.

Her candid encouragement helped me to:

(i) Re-imagine something I had been quick to dismiss
(ii) Find beauty (in an unlikely place)
(iii) Use resources already at my disposal
(iv) Step into new possibilities
(v) Lovingly transform something

 

My most important observation.


Perhaps my most important observation was to witness the power of my inner critic.

What was equally impressive was finding the resolve to grow beyond my self imposed limitations... despite all of my hidden doubts, fears and frustrations.

In my own small way, I feel as if I am a better person for the experience...

 

Creative sabbatical.


Recently I have been allowing myself to be more fully in my creative flow... after an extended period of dormancy...

I am currently four months into a six month sabbatical in Ubud Bali...

My focus here has been to create simply for the pure joy of it.

I have been drawing, painting, photographing, acting, singing and writing poetry. I even started playing the ukulele...

What I have discovered through this exploration is that the most important task for the creative spirit is to show up...

to be present..
each day...
to life...
to honour...
the creative impulse...

 

Thanks for reading.


Thanks for being present to me sharing this.

My hope is that this little story inspires you to re-imagine something in your own life.

 

Love

Damien

 

Ps. I'd love to know what creative projects you are working on... Please share in the comments...

PPs. You can see the final results of my creative experiment below...

 

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